Wheynet

I've always been interested in art. Drawing first and foremost because it was the first and easiest medium available to me as a kid, and then further down the line it was painting.
After many years of drawing and practicing, I saw my skills come to a standstill and I just couldn't develop any further. I decided to stop drawing. Completely. It was heartbreaking for me, but what was worse was to be unbearably frustrated and depressed when I was never satisfied with my level of work.
As artists, as far as I know from being with other artists and writers, you get this itch, this urge to create. It's almost impossible to ignore. Even after quitting drawing for going on 6 years now, I get the creative urge. I get it so often and it kills me to tell myself that I shouldn't bother trying to create because I know it's not going to come out good enough. I would write instead. Cross-stitch instead. Play games or hover over my sprouting baby plants instead, to try and alleviate the itch. I'm irritable and listless and depressed.
Recently, my girlfriend Dominique and I were sitting around and watching tv and she springs on me a Bob Ross "The Joy of Painting" episode. Apparently she loves watching him paint. I watched two with her and then started a YouTube Bob Ross spree. And then a Robin Clonts spree...and I've gone down from there, watching oil and watercolour painting like mad.
I looked at these things and remembered how much freedom I felt with the very small amount of painting I had done in my younger years. A kind of freedom I never felt like I had with drawing. Too much obsessing with detail and specifics for me that I couldn't get away from. And I thought...I could do that. I could paint. It might not look good, but I know that at least I like doing it.
So at the beginning of next year- 2017 -I will paint! And I will post! And hopefully gain skills and maybe possibly sell things! But for sure the painting.
Thanks for sticking around for the life story, it means a lot to me.
See you in 2017.
-Wheynet